Instead of being at my desk at work, I'm sitting at our dining table at home, having a little break while Alexander is napping. My day started at 6.30am when I got out of bed, nursed him, fed him his breakfast of toast and weetbix, cleaned up, changed his nappy, made the bed while he pulls out all his toys and makes more mess. Halfway through that, I had to stop him from climbing onto the chair to look out the window - twice. After that I take him out for a crawl in the backyard (thank goodness it's a sunny day), play a game of fetch with my other baby, Frankie, put him on the swing until he's had enough. It's 10.30am when he goes down for his nap, I hurriedly take a shower, get dressed, brush my hair and have my cup of coffee while I work on this post.
And this is what I do everyday now, my friends. Yes, I have finally taken the plunge; I have become a stay at home mum.
take out all the costs (ie. childcare, parking, petrol, tolls) my salary works out to be pitiful few dollars an hour. But mostly I made this decision because the thought of being away from him just broke my heart.
The best thing about being a stay at home mum is being able to spend everyday with Alex. We go to the beach, the park and the shops all the time and my days are filled with laughter (along with the crankiness and dirty nappies). Another thing I love is how I am now much more involved with my local community. I chat to shopkeepers who love giving Alex a cuddle and I have really started to get to know my neighbours. I meet other mums at playgroup and have joined in other activities like swimming lessons, pilates wth a creche, and next term I'll sign us up for baby gym.
One day I will go back to paid work but for now I am proud and happy to be a stay at home mum. I am so grateful to have Stu's support. In the grand scheme of things I feel that the tender baby years is only a very short period of time and I want to be there for every moment of it.
Motherhood is... having your life turned upside down, and loving through it all.